I am going to be completely honest.
Sometimes I look at my 6 children and I think, “What am I doing?”
I mean, there is no doubt that my life was easier before. I used to take my two children and drop them off at a private school. I would go to the gym to a job I loved. I would go to Costco and WinCo and doctor’s appointments by myself. Sometimes I would meet my friends for lunch. I would go to coffee. I had a (fairly) clean house. My children were (fairly) well-behaved.
I will be homeschooling all 6 of my children. Enough said.
There goes all my “alone” time. There goes my sanity.
Sometimes, especially at the end of the day when I am trying to get all 6 children showered and brushed and tucked into bed, I lose my patience. I feel like snapping. And I wonder, why did God give this job to someone like me? We’ve all seen that mom who is calm, cool and collected. She doesn’t raise her voice. She doesn’t get impatient. She seems to know exactly how to discipline in every situation.
I am not that mom! Maybe God should have chosen her instead of me.
But I know that He didn’t. I know that He called ME to this task. It is so obvious when I look back at our journey that we are exactly where God wants us to be. He has provided everything we needed at every step of the way. And I know that He will continue to do so.
So if you see me around town, and maybe my hair is kind of frizzy and I am wearing sweatpants. Or maybe one of my children (or two or three) are missing their shoes. Or maybe I am “that” mom in WinCo who is yelling at her oldest child while the youngest is throwing a fit in the cart. Please just give me a little grace. And maybe try to forget whatever it is that you just saw.