I am feeling a bit discouraged today. This waiting thing isn’t all that its cracked up to be! When we received our referral and found out who our children are, our adoption agency submitted us for a court date in Ethiopia. At that point they told us to expect to wait 3-4 weeks until we found out when that court date is, and then another 4 or so weeks until we travel. Well, tomorrow it will be 6 weeks since we were submitted to court. And we just received an email that the courts are requesting two more pieces of paperwork for our file. Once those are turned in, they will assign us a court date. So 6 weeks, and we still don’t know when we are going to see our children! We are still waiting! Waiting for the paperwork to be completed. Waiting to be able to book our plane tickets. Waiting to hug our children for the first time.
I keep reminding myself that God is in control. He knows the days and hours and minutes of our lives and He knows what is best for us. He has been in charge of the timing of every part of this process. But honestly, I am having a hard time with this! I feel like crying!
I am very much a planner. I have my to-do lists organized by the week. I have my days scheduled and I don’t like to be late! I like concrete plans and knowing that things will happen as they are supposed to. So pretty much….all of that is out the window right now. And, being a mom of 6 kids, I have a feeling I won’t get it back anytime soon.
Scott keeps reminding me that when we have six kids, I shouldn’t expect everything to run smoothly all the time. He says it is ok to be late. He says it is ok to have a messy house. In fact, just the other day (and he seriously said this…this was not a joke), he came home from work and told me that he thought it was great that I wasn’t stressing myself out over having a dirty house! He thought I was practicing for the mess that six children will make. But no…I just hadn’t had time to clean up yet after Easter weekend and all of our company.
To try to encourage myself I read an on-line bible study on waiting. Here is what I took away from it…
WAITING and HOPING are wound together like the strands of a rope.
Waiting involves an expectation of something special. Waiting means anticipation, expectation, confident hope in something that will take place. Ultimately, waiting on the Lord is like waiting on the sun to rise—waiting expectantly for the Lord’s answers to human needs as the sun brings the warmth of the day.
The ability to wait on the Lord stems from being confident and focused on who God is and in what God is doing. It means confidence in God’s person: confidence in His wisdom, love, timing, understanding of our situation and that of the world. It means knowing and trusting in God’s principles, promises, purposes, and power.
Thank you God for being exactly who you say you are. Thank you that I can trust that every single one of your promises is true. Thank you for loving me and wanting only the best for me. Please help me to remember this when I am short-sighted and only focused on what I can see. You see ALL and you know ALL. Help me to wait patiently upon you.